Tomorrow is the official end of my maternity leave.
it's back to work in the morning, and I have mixed feelings about it. We are going to be on a much tighter budget with T in daycare now, but it was a no brainer for me to go back to work. Although the budget is much tighter, we are a two income family, and there's simply no way financially we could have done it any other way. Besides, it works for us, and I think it will work for us well. I sort of feel guilty, but for a different reason. I don't really feel guilty about him going to daycare. I feel more guilty about being so excited about going back to work!
If anything, what I have learned through being home for this long is that it's not really for me. I've enjoyed relaxing and being home with T for this time, and wouldn't trade it for ANYTHING, But it's HARD, and long-term, I think I will be a better mom going to work every day and working outside the home. I feel a huge need to exercise my brain right now. And also, I am very fortunate to really really love what I do. And I think I am good at it. I think me working will make me a better mom to T when I am home and with him at all times outside of work. Besides, have I ever mentioned my schedule? You really can't beat it. We'll be home together in the afternoons by 4 every day, and by 3 on Fridays. So it's certainly not like I burn the midnight oil at work or anything :)
Anyway, he starts "school" tomorrow, and I go back to work, so today is a busy day of getting daycare supplies labelled and ready, getting my closet and clothes organized and figuring out what on EARTH I'm going to wear in the meantime while I lose the last of this baby weight, and getting lunches made and bottles washed and the house cleaned. I do well with lots to do and a schedule.
It's been fun, but the honeymoon is over, and the party's just beginning.
1 comment:
it will be nice to have some grown up time during the day :) i know when i went back part time, it was so nice to have the best of both worlds and with your schedule it sounds like you will, too! can't wait to see the next video!
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